It is 1,2,3…13 days to my birthday y’all. 🙂 🙂 🙂
For the longest time, I believed I wasn’t really into gifts. Not just on special days like birthdays and Christmas but all round not so much a gift person. This was further proven to me every time I took the test for love languages and scoring zero when it came to gifts. I used to be at a loss of words whenever people would ask me what I wanted for my birthday.
However, right in the middle of last year I got my heart broken pretty badly. It was chest pains and pools of tears for months on end. Selah.
Do you know what God did? It felt like He ran ahead of me and surrounded me like a hedge, He was my fortress, an immovable fortress. Because I broke down but I didn’t hit the ground. It didn’t matter which side I fell, I always ended up in His arms. I collapsed into Him. I wrote a little bit about it here.
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
God held my hand, rubbed my back, kissed my face, kissed my neck, picked me up, sat with me, sang over me, listened to me vent, took my burden…
The God of the universe defended Himself to me. I don’t know if I’ll ever get over that. I remember it so clearly. I was in a taxi going back home on the verge of tears as that had become my default state. I was in anguish, confused, looking for a promise to hold on to , not sure there was even one when His voice cut through my thoughts and said , “I didn’t do this, Gloria. I didn’t do this to you.” The God of the universe saw it fitting to re-assure me that He was on my side.
My top three love languages are Quality time, words of affirmation and Physical touch. The order changes, I learnt, depending on which season of my life I’m in. When I was in the throes of pain, Physical touch was more important to me than anything else. I needed to be held. I needed hugs, I needed physical connection. The Lord has hugged me!!! The Lord kisses my face. I think I received more words of knowledge and prophecy in the last part of last year than I have ever received in my entire life! My Father has loved on me very specifically. My default answer to how are you these days is; “I enjoy God, He excites me!”
I rejoice at Your word
As one who finds great treasure.
I have been receiving gifts almost non stop since about November last year. People have been incredibly good to me. It was as if people were going out of their way to be good to me. From buying me milkshakes, breakfast when I’m hungry at work, someone just texting me asking for my shoe size because they wanted to buy me shoes,paying for my trips, giving me cool sunglasses…I have been gifted!!! I have alarms on my phone that go off through out the day and one of them says “See God” . Usually when people see it, they ask me what I mean by see God. What I mean is , See God being good to me.
Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.
The way I see it, it’s not the individuals giving me gifts even though I appreciate them. It’s individuals delivering gifts from God to me. They’re simply messengers. 🙂 Anyway, it is thirteen days to my birthday and because God has been lavishing His love on me, I now absolutely love gifts!!!
However, I already have the greatest gift anyone could ever have. I have God. God gives Himself to me without holding back. My Father , my friend, my lover, He pursues me. He is my healing and my joy. He is my beauty for ashes. He is my vindication. I am my Beloved’s and He is mine. The Lord is my Shepherd, I want nothing!